My Life

My life consists of endless amounts of laundry, house cleaning and dishes. I work part time in a wonderful store a job I really enjoy. My job takes me away from the endless household chores that go along with raising a family.

I have a husband and 2 grown sons that don't seem to realize that you grow up get a job and move on with your life. I have one son who lives at home with his 4 year old child. An older son who lives at home occasionally he is nearly 30 and some days i wonder how he has managed to make it through the day without help.

My granddaughter is 4 years old and in need of constant attention. I am the only other female in the house so the duties of hair combing, bath taking, and picking out clothes usually fall on me. Most of these chores are followed by endless fights. So in my mind I wonder are the fights really worth it.

I almost forgot to mention the hyperactive dog...named Face a black cock er spaniel that came to us from a breeder mill, A rescue dog. I honestly believe she is part pig. and then we have the cat. she is getting up in years but has always had an attitude, This is my house and I just let you live in it. Today is not your day to pet me so get out of my face. When she came to us my son named her princess, she refused to answer to that name so she received a new name Kit Kat. Yes just like the candy bar. Now Kit Kat is an animal that holds a grudge. It is best not to make her angry she will pay you back. She hates the dog and slaps her at every opportunity.

So Now we add in the mix of a hyper dog and a hateful cat and 2 grown sons the endless ringing of the many phones we have in this house, not to mention the constant cartoons playing on the television. We each have a cell phone so that is 4 cellphones (when the oldest is here) one land line phone and one phone for business which my husband has in his office. The yelling from room to room calling the granddaughter to get out of that, or stop doing that, or her running screaming through the house with something she is not supposed to have with the dog hot on her trail or her grandfather or father....Three ring circus you say? Always. And those of you who know me well can now understand how I am. completely and totally over the edge. Just kidding I will add that I have Jesus and He is the one one constant in my life, The one thing that never changes, He asks only one thing from me to come to him and sit with him and allow him to love me warts and all.

You might ask would you leave if given the opportunity to do something else? I have thought about that long and hard because sometimes I just want to walk out the door and never look back. But I have invested 28 years into this marriage and into this family and I really can't see myself doing anything else. I often dream of being somewhere else and being someone else. But then reality hits and I realize that I am in the place God wants me to be and doing the things He wants me to do.

So this life such as it is, Is mine and for now I must continue living it. Until the Lord calls me home. I can however pray that it happens soon. This is the Lord's rambling rose signing off.

Basking In His Presence

Sitting here at my desk I can look outside my window. I am amazed at the awesomeness of God. Have you taken the time to slow down lately in this microwave world of ours where you have to be in high gear all the time to accomplish anything. And if you aren't accomplishing something you aren't getting anywhere. Looking out at this huge oak tree by my window I am thinking God you are mighty you created every detail on that tree and it is beautiful, You created the pile of leaves that are along my fence line, you cause the grass to grow, the rain to fall and the flowers to bloom. Often in my life I am to busy to sit and just meditate on how awesome God is.

God is reminding me how very little i sit and listen to him. This morning the house is empty which is unusual in my house. Normally I am involved in the fight of a lifetime or so it seems to my 4 year old granddaughter with hair issues, The cat slapping the dog the phones starting to ring because my husband has a business at our home. I think if only one day in this madness could be normal. But then I am reminded that I failed to start the day the Jesus way. To put him first in all that I say and do. That if I would only let the Jesus in me respond to the people that I deal with on a daily basis. If I would allow the offense to not effect me. I was reminded of a passage of scripture. Psalms 23 says " The Lord is my shepherd I shall not want He makes me to lie down in green pastures He leads me beside the still waters, He restores my soul, He leads me in paths of righteousness(right living) for his name's sake. Even though I walk through the valley of the shadow of death, I will fear no evil for thou art with me; thy rod and thy staff comfort me. vs 1-4

That passage has come to have new meaning for me. I have a shepherd named Jesus who will lead me and guide me if I don't fight him and go against him. He takes care of all of my needs and each day his mercies are new every morning and He restores my soul to face another day and keep walking in him. Even when I have those valley times when I think I am not going to make it and think that God has had enough of me and left the country He is still with me, I do not have to fear. And his rod and his staff are a comfort to me. I did not understand that part of the passage until I read part of a teaching by Kay Arthur explaining about sheep and the shepherds rod and staff. God disciplines his children because He loves us. So I have to be disciplined often once a day sometimes and most day's every 5 minutes.

Take some time today to bask in the awesomeness of God's presence and allow him to take you on a journey that you have never taken. This is God's rambling rose signing off.

Simply Eeyore

I am sure you were wondering about the title of todays blog. But my life is sometimes the life of an Eeyore. Things are always half empty instead of half full. In the life of Eeyore you simply exist and you tend to be a bit negative.

Yesterday I taught my second sunday school class. I looked at it as if I had failed. Forgetting that I was teaching for the most part 4 year olds to 6 year olds. That have the attention span of a fly. The Eeyore in me looked at it as a mess! And I posted it so on my facebook. But the Jesus in me communicated to me later that I had done exactly as he had asked me to do. I stepped up and took the class reaching out to those children who would not have a teacher if I hadn't been willing to be obedient.

The class has taught me things already, I have read stories that I normally would not read. Preparing to teach has caused me to dig into the word a bit deeper because I know that children ask deep questions. Another thing that i am learning is how to pray. Big prayers with fancy words dont impress God at all. For me It is simple things like the prayer for a dead bunny or a dog that have been dead for some time.

Eeyore is learning not to take things so seriously. The world wont end over a first grade sunday school class. The name of Jesus was spoken in my class. The scripture was read and prayers were prayed. And yes Eeyore lives on. In my heart of hearts I may always be an Eeyore But who's to say that Eeyore might change his attitude someday. Yes I will admit I am an Eeyore but Jesus loves all the Eeyore's of the world. This is the rambling rose signing out May you have a tigger day full of bounces and new things around every corner.

The Dream

I am not much of a dreamer, I dont sleep well at night so most of the time there is no time to dream. But I must say when I dream I seem to dream really big. Alot of people have said that I have the gift of prophecy so when I see pictures as I refer to them I see them big and in color. Never before have I had a dream repeat it's self. But this one did. I had this dream maybe a year ago and it was very vivid then but much more now. So I have decided to share what this dream was about. I wish I was Able to draw pictures I think I could do a better job with the discription if I could draw it out.

The dream opens In a garden this beautiful green lush garden, the trees are in full bloom with the most beautiful flowers and the smells are so strong..along one side of the garden is a brick wall and along the top of this wall was hanging the most fragrant honey suckle. There was such a sense of peace and contentment in that garden the paths through the garden were polished with this rock that was almost transparent. I turned around to see where the running water was because i heard water and I saw this small like pond that was filled with the clearest and coldest water I had ever seen. along the bottom of this brook were pebbles and rocks of shapes and sizes I had never seen before. I again turned around to see a stage had been set. there were steps leading up to this white rock stage with great pillars on each side and wrapped around these pillars were 3 inch wide ribbon of gold and silver with the most beautiful white birds circleing In and out of the pillars they flew. Suddenly a blast of a horn where did it come from I couldnt see anyone else but me in this garden and I looked up to the pillars and didnt see anyone the horn sounded a second time and then a third. and out of these double french doors a woman appeared. She was standing in her wedding dress. She was beautiful with hair of gold twisted and braided upon her head. upon her head was a crown it seemed to be made of gold material the amazing thing was that there were 7 points on this crown and 7 jewels of differnt color. One was a diamond one was a ruby one was an amathest, a pearl a topaz and emerald. The last stone seemed to be of the color of an opal it was pink tinged but seemed to change color with the light. I couldnt make out her face but I could see that her complection was perfect, not a spot or a blimish marked her face. Her gown was made of white silk a gold threaded veil was attached to the back of the crown. and flowed down her back and for yards and yards behind her. The silk was covered and beaded in small fine pearls. Golden threads again were woven in with the fabric and with the beading. I also noticed that the back of this dress came to 7 points just like the crown had. The train seemed to grow as she turned and walked the light that was comming off of that dress was so bright it was hard to look at her as she began to walk a red carpet rolled out in front of her and and white rose petals were dropping it seemed from the sky But not one petal touched her or her dress. she was carrying a bouquet of flowers red and white roses and lillies and from the flowers fell again 7 streamers of pale color's that i couldnt make out. As she walked the air grew thick all of the birds stopped singing it was as if a hush fell over the entire garden. walking away from the stage and down the red carpet path I saw 2 white iron gates that were opened by hands unseen not a sound was made from the gates and there were no guests the dream seemed to be just centered on the woman. She was walking toward something with a look of anticipation on her face but I never saw a groom. I never saw anyone but me and I felt as if I were intruding on something that I wasn't to be a part of. The rambling rose is signing off to wonder what all of this means.

just another day...

I seem to have those days where nothing that I attempt works out. No matter how hard I try to make things fall into place. God reminded me of that today, as I tried to get things into proper order. He is the author and finisher of my faith. He is the one who put's things in order and disaray. No matter how hard we try to work things out for ourselves they never seem to work. 

I was thinking this morning how will I acomplish all of the things that I want to acomplish today? How will I be in more than one place at a time? How will I, How will I? do you see the what is forming here? I is the center of the universe and Jesus is sitting on the back burner. Instead of me being the one who is the center of my life Jesus should be first and formost. He is the one who needs to occupy the drivers seat of my life. When I make decesions and choices without His help I sure tend to make a mess of things. 

Today was one of those days where nothing seemed to work out the way I wanted it to. When I dont put the Lord in charge at the very begnning of the day, It seems that the day is sunk. But knowing this dosent make me any better at doing this. 

The Lord should hold the place of honor in my heart and life. His choices for me are far better than my own. My prayer for each of you that read this and for myself is that we may follow in the path that the shepherd leads.  This is the rambling rose signing off....